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"That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ."
(1 Peter 1:7 KJV) Read: 1 Peter 1:3-9
When I was seventeen, my faith was severely tested for the first time. As a one year old Christian, I was very ignorant of the Word. In July, someone loaned me a Bible commentary on Romans. I enjoyed reading it until I came to chapter eight, verse nine. Then I panicked, thinking I might not have the Holy Spirit and still be unsaved. And, my frantic search to find the assurance of my salvation began.
Depression crushed me, and my life became a journey through a monotonous dark tunnel with no light in sight. I wasn't attending church then, so I searched for answers on Christian radio programs. None of them discussed my question, and I lacked the courage to call an unknown pastor. I had no one to turn to but God. I begged him to take away my fears and give me peace. But, my prayers didn't seem to go beyond my bedroom ceiling.
I kept searching for answers. I returned to high school that fall barely able to concentrate, and I whispered when I spoke. In October, I finally found a book that taught that the Holy Spirit had come inside when I was saved. I felt as light as a floating balloon. I cried, thanking God. My depression ended soon after this discovery.
A few years later, I asked Jesus, "Why did you allow this to happen to me?"
He answered, "For my glory.".
We tend to think everything revolves around us. In reality, everything revolves around God, and His glory. He does all things for our good and His glory, to make us like Jesus.
Jesus strengthened my faith through this trial. And, I've learned that God had heard my cries. His answer seemed delayed then, but I know it came at just the right time.
Thank you Father, for being so faithful to me. Knowing that you use our trials to make us like Jesus makes everything meaningful. It's such a comfort that you are in control. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Copyright Beverly Waller
